Frustrated….

Durning winter breaking, I got into the habit of going to sleep at 5 or 4 a.m. and then waking up at like 5 or 6 p.m. During that time of the year, the sun went down and it was already dark outside around 5ish. So basically I NEVER SAW THE SUN!! My sleeping habit was like that for about 3 and a half weeks! I would basically I would get up and go on tumblr, go eat, then go on tumblr some more, maybe watch a movie, take a shower, and go to sleep. I did not leave my house at all for 3 and a half weeks! Looking back at that now it’s super crazy and that was not a good thing to do! (but during that time I discovered how much I LOVE ONE DIRECTION :) so thats a plus!!)

Now, I feel like I’m falling into that bad habit again!!! I just recently came back from the beach and I am tired coming back from a holiday! WTF! You are suppose to come back completely rested and relaxed from a holiday; am I right? I only have to work on Saturdays in the summer so I only have to wake up early one time a week! So, since I’ve came home from the beach I find myself waking up later and later and going to sleep later and later. I freaking woke up at 3 in the afternoon today! And I didn’t even wake up myself! My sister came upstairs to wake me up and said that we are going to Wal-Mart so get up if you need to go, which I did cause I told her yesterday. If I didn’t have to go I can guarantee you that I would have still been asleep and probably have waken up at like 6 p.m. When I went to Wal-Mart I was so tired! I could not walk around and I NEEDED to sit! It was crazy! Then when I got home, my eyes got heavy my body was exhausted and I needed a mini nap and may I remind you that I was only in Wal-Mart for 35 mins and only fully awake for about an hour! 

Currently, I am still awake and it is 6 a.m. I realized I am falling into the same bad habits again like an hour ago and I did try to go to sleep. But for some reason mother freaking nature decides that when I am going to shut my eyes, she is going to make the wind pound against my window making a bunch of ruckus, makes some rain come in, add a little thunder, and make my satellite search for signal…..

And may I add I NEED TO BE SKINNY! And I can’t do that if I’m not awake in the day time and have the energy to go to the gym and focus on my eating habits!

The odds or just not in my favor right now…….